Childlike Joy

On the way back for the retreat in Memphis! 10 hours driving...

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 08:15:54 -0600

On the way back for the retreat in Memphis! 10 hours driving there and back is a very long trip… but so worth it! Can’t wait to post about everything I learned while in Memphis!

This song reminds me of how precious my life is and how...

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 08:06:00 -0600

This song reminds me of how precious my life is and how everything I am and everything I do is for the glory of the Lord. He is my sacrifice, my father, my source of life, and my lamb. Praise the Lamb who was slain.

PERSPECTIVES! SIGN UP AND TAKE IT NOW!!! IT’LL CHANGE...

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 19:38:50 -0600

PERSPECTIVES! SIGN UP AND TAKE IT NOW!!! IT’LL CHANGE YOUR LIFE AND YOU WON’T REGRET IT!!!

I am free. I am free indeed.

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 19:39:38 -0600

I am free. I am free indeed.

ITS OFFICIALLY SENT!!

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 19:23:35 -0600

ITS OFFICIALLY SENT!!

Pinterest Page! -- Creative Ideas and Inspirations

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 16:38:03 -0600

Pinterest Page! -- Creative Ideas and Inspirations

Video

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 10:12:22 -0500

This is Organization and Church that has Changed my life. Jesus...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 10:09:03 -0500

This is Organization and Church that has Changed my life. Jesus is so sweet to be leading me in such an incredible way. This life of mine is his and for me to be able to serve in way that people will come to know him is the sweetest thing imaginable.

"For your Maker is your husband the Lord Almighty is his name the Holy One of Israel is your..."

Tue, 18 Sep 2012 01:17:45 -0500

“For your Maker is your husband the Lord Almighty is his name the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.
-Isaiah 54:5”

Prayer Post

Tue, 11 Sep 2012 00:46:00 -0500

I’m back in America and settling back into the busy schedule of life and I’m realizing how burned out I already am and it’s just started. So this is a very raw and real cry of my heart. A cry to my father, my best friend, my healer, my safe place, my everything.

Daddy there is no one else for me. None but you. In the chaos and confusion I know that you are sovereign still. My heart is heavy and my soul is weak and this is when I know that you will shine through me. You boast in my weakness and use my weaknesses to show others your incredible strength. I confess that I am sinful and awful and I do not deserve one second of your love. But you still do. You still love me. You still look at me every morning and tell me that your mercies are new. You show me in the littlest ways how much you love and cherish me. It overwhelms my entire being to know that I have done absolutely nothing to deserve your love. Nothing. I am nothing with you. I was dead and you gave me life. I was broken and you made me whole. I was sick and you healed me. For those reasons and so many more I should wake up each day and live my life for you. Devote my every minute to praising your name and bringing you glory. Daddy I am so sorry. Tears are streaming down my face because everyday I fail you. Everyday I choose things of this world over you. I choose money, school, friends, family, education, clothes, television, food, and so much more. Some of these things are so good that they are deceiving. Everything I do should be for your glory and for your name. I give my time and energy to things that have absolutely no value. They mean nothing. My every breath should be shouting your praise. This world has nothing for me. It only leaves me with emptiness and tears in my eyes. I look at my brokenness and my heart breaks because I know that I am giving into this world. I look at the brokenness of this world and my heart shatters because I know that so many of the people do not know your name. I know that people near and dear to my heart do not have the comfort that I have in you. They do not know what is like to be chosen by a great and mighty King for absolutely no reason. They do not know what it means to have a Savior. There are people who pray to you and go to church and yet they still don’t know your unfathomable limitless love. There are whole nations that are living in constant darkness never having heard your story. The story of one man, your son, who gave everything so that we could know you. He lived a perfect faultless life just to pave a way for us to hear your name. He died the worse death possible so that we could one day sit at your thrown. You traded your righteousness for shame and I am caught in your intimate embrace. Nothing compares to this Love. Nothing can separate me from you. Not death or life. No Angel or Demon. Not the present or the future. No power. No height. No depth. Nothing in this world. Nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate me from your Great Love. So take my life. Make it into something beautiful. Make it into something that will bring you glory. You have given me a Love that surpasses all of my understanding. My puny human mind will never be able to comprehend your Love for me. That’s my favorite part. The fact that I will Never be able to understand. It is by faith. By faith I have been saved. By faith I love you with all of my existence. By faith I come back and kneel at your feet when I’ve failed you. By faith I repent and start anew. By faith I have the boldness to be humiliated, shamed, and judged just so one person may come to know you. You are so beautiful and perfect. I confess my need for you. My eyes grow weary and my soul is weak. I feel like this world could come crashing down on me at any moment. Worry consumes my thoughts and my strength is failing me because of my affliction. Even in the midst of this I trust you O Lord!! I say that ‘You are MY God!” Shine your light on me and my path. Save me once again in your unfailing love. Let the enemy be silenced. Let my heart praise you through trials and hardship for I know that your will is perfect. I know this path is narrow and less traveled but greater is the reward and more breath-taking the journey. Let me find my rest in you and your word. Your word, a letter written to me in my time of need. A letter to reveal your person to me so that I may come to believe in you and to truly Know you! A truth that sets me free from all the bondage of this life. I will hold on to my hope and take courage again in knowing that you have already fought the battle and obtained victory. I have Victory in you. All of my failures and all of my fear… The God I love, You Have overcome. All my heartache and all my pain… God my healer, You Have overcome. All my burdens and all my shame… God my freedom, You Have overcome. All my trouble and all my tears… God my hope, You Have overcome! Let my heart take refuge in you. Through this world and all of its distractions let my heart remain still at the feet of your cross. Let my soul be in rest and worship you. Jesus I love you. No words will every be able to fully express the emotions I have for you. I love you… just doesn’t seem to be enough. I am going to try to express my love for you even though I know it will just sound ridiculous when compared to the Love you have for me. Daddy I will give you more than my words. I give you my life. I am your daughter. Your are my King. With every thing in me I long to worship you. I long to sit in your thrown room and cry out to you. I am constantly thinking about the day that finally get to see your face and sometimes I think that I will just run and jump into your arms because I am so happy. But I know that I will be so absolutely overwhelmed with my Love for you that I will fall on my knees and praise you. On my death bed I will have no fear or tears. Whether peaceful or painful, I will have a smile on my face because I will know that in a matter of minutes I will see your face. Your beautiful breathtaking face. I will laugh and cry out in joy because I will finally able to fully do what I have been created to do. Worship you. I get to worship you for eternity. Eternity. There is not one moment that crave to stay on this earth. I yearn for your kingdom. I yearn for Heaven. I yearn for you My Lord, My Savior, My Dad, My Everything.

"I’m feeling so incredibly blessed by my friends and my community today!!! God is blowing my..."

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 16:13:43 -0500

“I’m feeling so incredibly blessed by my friends and my community today!!! God is blowing my mind with how much he loves and cherishes me!”

Video from EUC 2012!!!! Best Video Ever!

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 18:40:47 -0500

Video from EUC 2012!!!! Best Video Ever!

Here are just a few photos from EUC! :))

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 01:43:07 -0500

My whole Group!!!! Bottom row: NaYoung, DaYoung, YH Top Row: Sanghak, Justin, SoYeop, Sujin, JW, Me, and TH

Circle Discussion Time with My Group

Students arriving at EUC camp!!! We're singing and welcoming them! :) So much Fun!

Worship Time!

God was doing absolutely incredible things at EUC

YH won the Chicken Leg game. I got eliminated within the first couple of minutes. That game is hard!

We're silly and We LOVE each other! Gosh I miss these kids!

Guys on my team doing the Tim Tebow stance after we got the top score in the relay games!! We beat ALL the other groups by over a minute and we got the highest Gum tower! (don't ask)

Bromance. Haha but really... It was so cool to see how God was not only revealing himself but building community between the students as well.

Here are just a few photos from EUC! :))

Leaving Korea

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 01:34:04 -0500

This is the photo we took from the airport. I cannot explain the emotions I was feeling. I was so overwhelmed and I couldn’t stop crying. I’m pretty sure the airport security thought I was a crazy person. I am now safely back home and everything was smooth sailing. I miss Korea already and feel beyond blessed to have been given the opportunity to Go and Serve the Lord there. I got to know so many incredible people and I will never forget a minute of it. I’ll be back. I don’t know when… but I know that I will set foot on Korean Soil again one day.

Open Doors: World Watch List 2012

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 01:27:41 -0500

Open Doors: World Watch List 2012

EUC-English Unification Camp

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 01:06:36 -0500

The last week of Korea finally came. I feel like the whole summer was leading up to this last week. So many of our students were going and they were so excited! I was so ready to see what incredible things God had in store.

When the students first arrived from the North and South they didn’t seem overly zealous to be there. It is crazy to think about how some of the South Korean students were only there because their parents made them. But then I think that is probably how camp is in America too. Anyways… I was super blessed to have an incredible person to be my translator for my group. Her name was Sujin! She was a complete blessing! Still praising the Lord that she was there. We had 3 North Korean students in our group and 4 South Korean students. There were only 4 girls total including me and Sujin! I was so excited because the North Korean students in my group were some of my favorite Guys from Heavenly Dream School! The first couple of days were definitely overwhelming. I mean really the whole week was, but you kinda go used to it after the second day. We would wake up early in the morning and eat breakfast. The leaders had a meeting before breakfast. So early! But so worth it because that was a sweet time of worship and preparation for the day. Then we would have a little bible study time with the students followed by a morning worship. P.s the Band was INCREDIBLE! We also had seminars about North Korea. This was one of the big wake up calls to a lot of the South Korean students because some/most of them had no idea what was and is going on in North Korea. After lunch we had different sessions through out the day. Worship Dance, Bible, English, and Games. These were so much fun and it was interesting for me to see how God used each different session to reach different students. Some students really found their element during English lessons and others thrived in Games. In all the sessions the staff (including me and Sujin) found a way to bring in the Gospel. We would share or other staff would share and it was crazy how all throughout the day the students were hearing truth.

We had free time after the sessions and before dinner. This was a crucial time of bonding for the students and rest for staff. It is hard when you are leading at camp and constantly pouring out everything you have. So it was so good to have a time in the middle of the day to refuel before that evening worship. Evening Worship. The speakers were absolutely phenomenal. Also, we had a translator so we were able to know what they were saying since they were speaking in Korean. Each speaker had his own style and they were all very direct in their messages. All of my students were so responsive. Jesus showed me his power and sovereignty at EUC in a way that I have never seen it before. It was mind blowing and straight up emotionally overwhelming. Seeing my students look at the Lord for the first time in a genuine way touched my heart so deeply I knew that I would forever be changed. It was like for a nano second I caught a glimpse of how much God loves them and I absolutely couldn’t handle it. Every night during worship I would cry out to God for the students in my group. I would pray over them, cry with them, and praise God for them. One of the songs we sung went like this… “I am free to live. I am free to love. I am free to live for you. Jesus” Let me tell you… hearing anyone sing this song is already overwhelming for me. But seeing my students who have known torture and persecution. That makes it so much better!!!!

By the end of the week the students in my group had become a unit! :) I could see the Love that they had for one another and how much they truly love the Lord. By the end of the week, out of my group, I had two new brothers in Christ and one new sister! AHHHH!!!! God is so so good! I can’t even contain it!

This is just a little piece of what happened at EUC! There is so much more but I am still processing a lot of it. I’m sure this won’t be the last time I write about EUC considering it was one of the best weeks of my life.

Here are some new Photos! :)

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 22:00:04 -0500

Favorite Coffee Shop

Playing Joku!

HANNA!!!!

Brooke, Grace, and I! Love these Ladies!

Brooke and I! :)

High Fives

Here are some new Photos! :)

Praising a Powerful God First

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 22:25:08 -0500

This morning, Hanna, Emilee, Jessica, and I were going through a study over prayer. We took turns reading and when we were done we started sharing our different thoughts about the study. I thought I would share mine here.

The power of praising God first in my prayers. I’ve encountered quite a lot bad or crap situations in my few years of life and I used to, after every bad thing that happened, look at God and say “Why are you doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this? Do you not love me? I can’t handle this” I would start to doubt his love for me and become bitter, thinking that he didn’t really love me or care for me. How selfish and ignorant I was and still am sometimes. To answer my own questions…. he doesn’t do anything bad to me, he only works for my good-Romans 8:28. He is most likely preparing me for something much bigger than myself. Preparing me to use the negative parts of my life in order to minister or share him with a person going through something similar. He’s allowing me more ammunition to bring him more glory in those situations. The next one is funny…. lets see what did I do to deserve painful situations in life…. umm let’s see… it’s call sin, Caitlin. You do it everyday and sometimes without even thinking about it. I’m not perfect. I fail everyday. The pain I feel in this life is nothing compared to what Jesus felt on the cross, so why should I feel like God is against me when bad things happen. My pain in this life is so small and insignificant when compared to the pain that I deserve for my sin. I deserve hell. I deserve an eternity separated from the only constant love and joy in this world, God. However, God loves me and his other children so much that he provided the cross, the ultimate sacrifice, the path to heaven. The day I accepted him into my heart and believed that Jesus died on the cross for me was the day that I realized that I was the luckiest girl in the whole world because I knew that I would have forever with my God. There’s a song… most everyone knows and one of the lines in the song says this, “What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy. What if trials of this life… The rain, the storms, the hardest nights are your mercies in disguise?” He allows us so much mercy by giving us Jesus. My BSM director once said this… “We give God qualities like merciful, gracious, just, loving, etc. But those categories aren’t enough to describe God. He’s not merciful, he IS MERCY. He’s not gracious, he IS GRACE. He’s not just, he IS JUSTICE. He’s not loving, HE IS LOVE.” Again, how selfish, ignorant, and human and I to think that I shouldn’t deserve pain. God is already having mercy on me beyond measure. The last one… Do you not love me? and I can’t handle this… 1 Peter 3:17-18 says “For it is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil. For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.” Hebrews 12:11 says “No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.” Hebrews 2:8 says “For because he himself has suffered when tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.” Job said this (job 1:21) “And he said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” 1 Corinthians 10:13 “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” Finally, Romans 8:18 says “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” Even though we go through trials and pain, God will never leave us. He will never forsake us, he will always watch over us. Psalm 121:7 says “The Lord will keep you from all harm, he will watch over your life.” Romans 8:38-39 says “For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” He will love and protect me though everything in this life BECAUSE he loves me. Back to my point…. if I am praising God at the beginning of every prayer, moment, situation then Satan doesn’t even have time to speak those lies to me. Because even during all the crap that is the earthly life, God is so incredible good. Through all the pain, he is still God. He is still all we need. He is still all we could ever want. He is still the provider of everything in our life. In the bad times especially… I need to praise God because at the end of the day, he’s all I need. I cannot even begin to explain how good it is to know that I will always have that.

God's Masterpiece

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 21:33:49 -0500

When the world is falling out from under me. I’ll be found in you, still standing. When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees. I’ll be found in you. You make all things new. You make all things new. When time and space are through, I’ll still be found in you. One of the major things that I have learned this summer is how absolutely incredible God is. Of course… we already know this. We go through our days thanking him for things and praying for other things. But how many times do I actually sit down and just be in awe of how beautiful and wonderful and incredible his is? That’s what the most important tings he’s showed me this summer. He has showed me how absolutely incredible he is. He provides for me, loves me with a limitless love, carries me when I am down, disciplines me daily, and he constantly molds me and uses his chisel to make me into his masterpiece. We ARE his masterpiece. I was so overwhelmed when I read the verse and while being in awe of God also realizing that he looks at me and he see’s his daughter, his beloved, his masterpiece. Today, take a moment and sit in awe of God and know how absolutely loved you are!

When the world has fallen out from under meI’ll be found in...

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 02:54:05 -0500

When the world has fallen out from under meI’ll be found in You, still standingWhen the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their kneesWhen time and space are through, I’ll be found in You

Every fear and accusation under my feetWhen time and space are through, I’ll be found in You